I am Anna Rodriguez-Dela Cruz. I am a rock climber, multi-sport neophyte, a travel maniac and a believer in the karmic universe. I work in digital media for a living. But I blog now because I am also a young widow. My husband succumbed to a depression so dark it overwhelmed him. I still do not understand how he came to do it. I thought we were the happiest couple in the world. He was an athlete and he loved life. As I write this, everything is still a blur to me. Its as if my life has become suspended and frozen in time. This is my effort at looking for purpose and meaning for all of this. I would like to share our story, one blogpost at a time. Perhaps, when all this has gotten clearer and my healing is underway, meaning would come in the lives we touched and the lives we might save along the way.